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yuletide signups are open! You should all go sign up so that there are lots and lots of great fics come Christmas morning. And I hope they do the stocking stuffer thing again because that was a great post-family-dinner time killer. :)
Oh, oh! Have I mentioned how giggly the Project Runway commercials make me? Especially the one where Tim Gunn walks into the studio, turns on the lights, and says, "Finally." Yes, GOD, finally. \o/
And while I was at work last night, I spent a lot of time thinking about the SPN premiere and why Dean's behavior works for me. I mean, I'm not expecting this explanation to work for anybody else, God knows, but it feels right to me. And I'm not saying Dean's right, because maybe he should shut the hell up and stop putting his foot in his mouth (and God knows it's not like he's been guilty of saying the wrong thing before), but since I think he's coming from a good place I'm giving him a little slack.
It's just that Dean will NOT stop cracking wise about the whole demon-deal thing. The high cholesterol crack, the canon threesomes (and can I say how much I would like someone to make me an icon of thumbs-up Dean that says, "I like cheeseburgers and canon threesomes!"), his casual attitudes towards the deal. Dean's so comfortable with this whole thing (although admittedly, he'd much rather NOT die, but ... okay, for Sam, whatever) he's cracking jokes. I'm sure telling Sam, "A choice between your life and mine? Yours, no contest," will not be sinking into Sam's brain any time soon the way Dean wants it to. He wants Sam to accept it and let it happen, and telling him outright that he'd give his life for Sam in a heartbeat just is not working. So, girls and fatty foods and beer, oh my!
Why the behavior makes sense to me, regardless of how much of a jerk it may make Dean look like:
Dean didn't get to have this.
When he was in Sam's shoes and John was in his, he knew NOTHING. He didn't know John was going to do it, he didn't know how easily John gave up his life for his son (a son who we all know has some serious self-esteem issues), and he sure as hell didn't get a year. Dean got a warning about Sam and a heart attack. That was it. Hell, Sam should feel grateful that he gets another year with Dean -- if the demon had said, "Hand it over right now," Dean probably would have done that, too. And then Sam would have had the same thing Dean had last year -- a void.
Dean's got to be looking back on John's decision now with different eyes, exactly as everyone is pointing out, and in doing so he's got to be seeing John's decision as something other than it was to him last year. John went out in a heartbeat, and he left this huge weight on Dean's shoulders -- YOU HAVE TO SAVE YOUR BROTHER, OR KILL HIM. Who does that? Weren't we all bitching about that last year? I mean, it's totally in character for John but Jesus Christmas, John, you big dumb tool. Dean spent so long agonizing over that. John didn't let him get used to the idea, he didn't let Dean (and Sammy) try to find a way out of the deal, he didn't get a chance to show them that ... well, Dean's life or his? No contest.
Dean knows damn well that Sam can live without him. Sam did it for four years. Of course, Dean's not taking into consideration that Sam is a completely different person than the angry kid who went off to Stanford and avoided his family for four years. But the fact is that Dean's still got those four years in his head (even though he's still conveniently forgetting the whole wanted-by-the-FBI thing when it comes to Sam having a normal life in the future). Sam doesn't know it yet, but he'll be okay. He's a great kid who's as independent as John's training and Dean's raising him could have made him. He'll be upset for a while, but he'll get over it, like he probably did in Stanford.
And when he does, he's going to know damn well that Dean enjoyed his last days and that Dean giving up his life for Sam was a no-contest decision.
Besides, Sam alive and pissed at him is waaaaay better than Sam dead and not pissed at him, you know?
Like I said, I really do buy Dean's behavior, even though I do think he's going about the entirely wrong way.
EDIT: Oh, I almost forgot!
How much do I love Jim and Pam together? THIS MUCH, plus THIS MUCH. Pam just always has this look of glee on her face anymore. This big beaming smile every time Jim says anything, and it just gets so much wider when she or Jim confirm they're dating. "Yes, I am! I'm dating this guy! Aren't you totally jealous? 'Cause you should be -- he's AWESOME!" And there is a part of me that adored the "the magic's gone" scene to vast immeasurable extremes, because it's just so very meta like the writers were sitting back in the writing room snickering like Muttley.
And as much as I would loathe a girl like Kelly with every fiber of my being in real life, I worship the ground she walks on on the show. Especially that little headshake, which KILLED me.
Also ... oh, Ryan. If I knew you had a two-hundred dollar haircut, I'd give you twice as many noogies. :)
Also,
yuletide signups are open! You should all go sign up so that there are lots and lots of great fics come Christmas morning. And I hope they do the stocking stuffer thing again because that was a great post-family-dinner time killer. :)Oh, oh! Have I mentioned how giggly the Project Runway commercials make me? Especially the one where Tim Gunn walks into the studio, turns on the lights, and says, "Finally." Yes, GOD, finally. \o/
And while I was at work last night, I spent a lot of time thinking about the SPN premiere and why Dean's behavior works for me. I mean, I'm not expecting this explanation to work for anybody else, God knows, but it feels right to me. And I'm not saying Dean's right, because maybe he should shut the hell up and stop putting his foot in his mouth (and God knows it's not like he's been guilty of saying the wrong thing before), but since I think he's coming from a good place I'm giving him a little slack.
It's just that Dean will NOT stop cracking wise about the whole demon-deal thing. The high cholesterol crack, the canon threesomes (and can I say how much I would like someone to make me an icon of thumbs-up Dean that says, "I like cheeseburgers and canon threesomes!"), his casual attitudes towards the deal. Dean's so comfortable with this whole thing (although admittedly, he'd much rather NOT die, but ... okay, for Sam, whatever) he's cracking jokes. I'm sure telling Sam, "A choice between your life and mine? Yours, no contest," will not be sinking into Sam's brain any time soon the way Dean wants it to. He wants Sam to accept it and let it happen, and telling him outright that he'd give his life for Sam in a heartbeat just is not working. So, girls and fatty foods and beer, oh my!
Why the behavior makes sense to me, regardless of how much of a jerk it may make Dean look like:
Dean didn't get to have this.
When he was in Sam's shoes and John was in his, he knew NOTHING. He didn't know John was going to do it, he didn't know how easily John gave up his life for his son (a son who we all know has some serious self-esteem issues), and he sure as hell didn't get a year. Dean got a warning about Sam and a heart attack. That was it. Hell, Sam should feel grateful that he gets another year with Dean -- if the demon had said, "Hand it over right now," Dean probably would have done that, too. And then Sam would have had the same thing Dean had last year -- a void.
Dean's got to be looking back on John's decision now with different eyes, exactly as everyone is pointing out, and in doing so he's got to be seeing John's decision as something other than it was to him last year. John went out in a heartbeat, and he left this huge weight on Dean's shoulders -- YOU HAVE TO SAVE YOUR BROTHER, OR KILL HIM. Who does that? Weren't we all bitching about that last year? I mean, it's totally in character for John but Jesus Christmas, John, you big dumb tool. Dean spent so long agonizing over that. John didn't let him get used to the idea, he didn't let Dean (and Sammy) try to find a way out of the deal, he didn't get a chance to show them that ... well, Dean's life or his? No contest.
Dean knows damn well that Sam can live without him. Sam did it for four years. Of course, Dean's not taking into consideration that Sam is a completely different person than the angry kid who went off to Stanford and avoided his family for four years. But the fact is that Dean's still got those four years in his head (even though he's still conveniently forgetting the whole wanted-by-the-FBI thing when it comes to Sam having a normal life in the future). Sam doesn't know it yet, but he'll be okay. He's a great kid who's as independent as John's training and Dean's raising him could have made him. He'll be upset for a while, but he'll get over it, like he probably did in Stanford.
And when he does, he's going to know damn well that Dean enjoyed his last days and that Dean giving up his life for Sam was a no-contest decision.
Besides, Sam alive and pissed at him is waaaaay better than Sam dead and not pissed at him, you know?
Like I said, I really do buy Dean's behavior, even though I do think he's going about the entirely wrong way.
EDIT: Oh, I almost forgot!
How much do I love Jim and Pam together? THIS MUCH, plus THIS MUCH. Pam just always has this look of glee on her face anymore. This big beaming smile every time Jim says anything, and it just gets so much wider when she or Jim confirm they're dating. "Yes, I am! I'm dating this guy! Aren't you totally jealous? 'Cause you should be -- he's AWESOME!" And there is a part of me that adored the "the magic's gone" scene to vast immeasurable extremes, because it's just so very meta like the writers were sitting back in the writing room snickering like Muttley.
And as much as I would loathe a girl like Kelly with every fiber of my being in real life, I worship the ground she walks on on the show. Especially that little headshake, which KILLED me.
Also ... oh, Ryan. If I knew you had a two-hundred dollar haircut, I'd give you twice as many noogies. :)
