Jun. 3rd, 2010

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You know what bugs me? When you say, "You know what I'd really love to read/love someone to write for me?" and then throw out a plotbunny, and people are like, "Well, if you want to see that so much, why don't YOU write it?"

Because it's not the same thing.

Yeah, I could write the fic where Jensen and Jared are rival romance novelists who both discover they're actually guys behind their female pseudonyms at a con and proceed to bicker before they fuck like bunnies, or the one where Parker and Brittany discover they're sisters, or the magical roommates!J2 AU. God knows I could write all of them, but I want to READ all of them. If I write it, that's great, but it doesn't kill my urge to read somebody else's version of it. I mean, I really rather desperately want to write a post-apocalyptic massive-epidemic story. It still doesn't change the fact that I want to read "The Stand" and any other killer-plague novel that gets released.

There's an entirely different kind of enjoyment one gets out of writing something than they do out of reading something, and there's an entirely different kind of enjoyment one gets out of reading something than they do out of reading something they themselves wrote. My writing a plotbunny I really desperately wanted to read isn't going to make me forget all of the plot points or jokes or turns of the phrase I wrote into the story. I want a delightful surprise, and no matter how well I may execute a plot bunny I really want to read, I'm not going to get surprised by anything in the story no matter how hard I try to forget what I wrote.

It's not about laziness or ordering people around or a lack of creativity. It's just me -- and a lot of other people -- being able to say, "You know what I would like to read somebody else's version of?"

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The cat attempted to wake me up at 3 AM. It had to be 3 AM, because I shoved him away and rolled over and the next thing I knew, there were birds tweeting loudly outside my window and I couldn't get back to sleep, and it turned out to be 5 AM.

Which is fantastic, really, because I initially lay down on the couch at 7 pm and slept the whole night through. Urgh, I fail.

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I got a call back from Wegmans about part-time work! They're going to do a phone interview with me on Saturday morning, so hopefully they'll hire me on and I can make a few extra bucks to pay my bills.

I also got a call back from the bankruptcy lawyer. We'll see how things pan out, but here's hoping I can go through with it, because there's no way in hell I can pay back the credit card debt I inflicted upon myself as a stupid college student.

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I'm off the phones at work as of today. This also means I don't have to go into work until 11 in the morning again. I have no idea what I'll be doing today since they changed our teams since I moved into training three weeks ago, but I'll just be happy to go back to my desk for a change. I'm comfy there, damn it.

Oh, okay.

Jun. 3rd, 2010 08:25 am
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My mom just forwarded me an email with a bunch of photos of cute babies and puppies that ended with "BE HAPPY!" in 36-point green Comic Sans.

This tells me two things:

1. She doesn't seem to understand I'm still mad at her.
2. My brother hasn't mentioned to her yet that I'm looking for a therapist so I can medicate my depression.

I'd be more irritated, but this will make going up to the house and getting more cat food while she's at work a bit easier. And hey, that just means she's not canceling my cell phone anytime soon. 'Cause trust me, when she figures out I'm not calling her on purpose -- which will probably happen when she calls me instead and I tell her point-blank that I'm still fucking livid about the panic attack -- that should be interesting.

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