it always sounds just like Sammy The distinction there--Sammy--just makes it that much more of a gut punch.
Most of the time, he isn't even sure whose underlying voice he's looking for. Ow. Ow ow OW. Because you know how helpless and frustrated and scared he would be.
Sam should get to complain about where Dad ends up before Dean finally dumps the contents of the box. This is where I started to tear up. Because...yes.
And it wouldn't hurt, and it wouldn't bring him to his knees, and it wouldn't haunt him for the rest of his life. It wouldn't be his curse, the one thing he regrets most. The world wouldn't feel like the next ice age has struck, like everything is cold and empty until the end of his days. Dean has no defenses here. You know this. I know this. People on MARS know this. Dean has never had an adequate defense against Sam. And he never will.
Dean never calls because even if he did Sam would never answer. And of course, the final killing blow. Because I don't have any defenses either. *sniffles*
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Date: 2006-06-13 07:42 pm (UTC)it always sounds just like Sammy
The distinction there--Sammy--just makes it that much more of a gut punch.
Most of the time, he isn't even sure whose underlying voice he's looking for.
Ow. Ow ow OW. Because you know how helpless and frustrated and scared he would be.
Sam should get to complain about where Dad ends up before Dean finally dumps the contents of the box.
This is where I started to tear up. Because...yes.
And it wouldn't hurt, and it wouldn't bring him to his knees, and it wouldn't haunt him for the rest of his life. It wouldn't be his curse, the one thing he regrets most. The world wouldn't feel like the next ice age has struck, like everything is cold and empty until the end of his days.
Dean has no defenses here. You know this. I know this. People on MARS know this. Dean has never had an adequate defense against Sam. And he never will.
Dean never calls because even if he did Sam would never answer.
And of course, the final killing blow. Because I don't have any defenses either. *sniffles*
I'd hate you if I wasn't reeling in admiration.