Guess whose history of depression may be current events again?

[apocalypsos]

'Cause, see, I've already felt weird lately but I was just attributing it to being tired from overworking myself at my job. But then came tonight.

1. Ran out of the house later than usual.
2. Either had to get McDonald's or starve tonight, so stopped for chicken Mcnuggets which took FOREVER.
3. Went too fast on the highway; got a speeding ticket. (And a ticket for not wearing my seatbelt, and a warning because all of my paperwork had something wrong with it.)
4. Burst into tears because I'm going to have to use money from my laptop fund. (This is not like the last time I got a ticket and burst into tears. Part of the reason I think I've worked myself into another case of depression is because I don't NEED the laptop and for once I've got the money to pay the fine, so normal me would just be grateful I've got the cash to pay for it and going, "Oh, for fuck's sake, I'm a moron.")
5. Stressed myself into a migraine and left work early.
6. Burst into tears AGAIN on the way home because "Birdhouse in Your Soul" came on the radio and that song makes me happy. So I cried. Yeah, I don't know.
7. Splurged on a six-pack of Smirnoff. Yes, I know.

So, yeah. I think a doctor's visit may be in order.

(Is it bad that I know precisely when I'm getting depression again? It's like it's right next to the bell in my brain that rings when I know I just got my period. And this is definitely not THAT particular alarm.)