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apocalypsosAh, Tuesdays. *happy sighs*
Reading those Misha Twitters reminded me of something I wanted to say about Castiel, mostly in response to critiques I've read of Castiel's behavior this season, the things he's done, and why he did those things. I understand where people are coming from, I do ... I guess I just want to unload and say why those same behaviors endeared Castiel to me hardcore.
It's just ... going up against all of heaven is HARD. Whenever I read people's questions about why Castiel didn't defy orders sooner, I think, "But he's not Sam. He's Dean.."
It's taken Dean four seasons to turn into the kind of man who'll defy John's orders. He spent a long time not questioning that man. Hell, he still doesn't take criticism of John well. But he'll defy John's orders if they come to Sam. He'll struggle like CRAZY, but he'll do it ... for a good goddamn reason.
Dean served under John, in a way, for twenty-five years. Castiel's served under these angels and supposedly under God (as far as their orders have said) for centuries, millenia, even. And he doesn't have a Sam to be a good goddamn reason for him to defy orders. He had none.
While Sam's been turning into John for the past four seasons, Dean's been turning into Sam, thanks in part to Sam's influence and in part to the machinations both sides of the supernatural divide have been putting them through. This leaves Castiel as Dean way back in season one -- the good soldier, the loyal servant. And he needs a Sam to pull him out of that.
If it took Dean as long as it has to buck John's influence, I'm not surprised that Castiel -- who's defying an entire angelic army -- would take longer, only brought as far as he has by an apocalyptic emergency.
He's not totally there, of course -- the moves he made in Lucifer Rising are going to have to be dealt with the same way that Sam's reaction to being played for the last two years will come back to hit us next season as well -- but it's a journey that's starting with a single difficult step.
And he took it.
So ... yeah. YMMV, but that's my take on things, so. *fidgets*
Reading those Misha Twitters reminded me of something I wanted to say about Castiel, mostly in response to critiques I've read of Castiel's behavior this season, the things he's done, and why he did those things. I understand where people are coming from, I do ... I guess I just want to unload and say why those same behaviors endeared Castiel to me hardcore.
It's just ... going up against all of heaven is HARD. Whenever I read people's questions about why Castiel didn't defy orders sooner, I think, "But he's not Sam. He's Dean.."
It's taken Dean four seasons to turn into the kind of man who'll defy John's orders. He spent a long time not questioning that man. Hell, he still doesn't take criticism of John well. But he'll defy John's orders if they come to Sam. He'll struggle like CRAZY, but he'll do it ... for a good goddamn reason.
Dean served under John, in a way, for twenty-five years. Castiel's served under these angels and supposedly under God (as far as their orders have said) for centuries, millenia, even. And he doesn't have a Sam to be a good goddamn reason for him to defy orders. He had none.
While Sam's been turning into John for the past four seasons, Dean's been turning into Sam, thanks in part to Sam's influence and in part to the machinations both sides of the supernatural divide have been putting them through. This leaves Castiel as Dean way back in season one -- the good soldier, the loyal servant. And he needs a Sam to pull him out of that.
If it took Dean as long as it has to buck John's influence, I'm not surprised that Castiel -- who's defying an entire angelic army -- would take longer, only brought as far as he has by an apocalyptic emergency.
He's not totally there, of course -- the moves he made in Lucifer Rising are going to have to be dealt with the same way that Sam's reaction to being played for the last two years will come back to hit us next season as well -- but it's a journey that's starting with a single difficult step.
And he took it.
So ... yeah. YMMV, but that's my take on things, so. *fidgets*
