A quick update
Jun. 29th, 2013 04:34 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
apocalypsos-- So I've sent out the second query to an agent for "Heroine Addiction" to see if I can get it published by a traditional publisher. The first one got shot down. Have I mentioned I hate writing queries?
-- I took next week off, which means I'll have plenty of time to look for a new job. Which is good, because I am literally THIS CLOSE to just quitting. Whenever I think it might possibly not be so stressful, it gets so much worse. (Case in point: We keep getting sent worksheets of claims which need to be processed that day. If we can't finish, we have to email our supervisor as to why we couldn't get them done every damn day. So basically we're expected to make excuses why we're not good enough every night, unless of course we manage to do ten to twelve hours of work whether we want to or not.)
-- The job is stressing me out so much that today I logged out so I wouldn't have a panic attack and call one of my supervisors to yell at her, then went to the cottage at the lake my parents are renting for the next two weeks for a breather, *then* left to come home to finish my work only to feel a panic attack coming on the closer I got to my apartment, THEN got pulled over by a cop for speeding in an attempt to get home before I had a panic attack. He gave me a ticket even though when he came back to my car with my paperwork, I was bent over the steering wheel hyperventilating.
You're goddamn right I'm pleading not guilty. I've never done it before but I'd genuinely like the cop try to explain to the magistrate the reasoning behind giving a speeding ticket to someone who was clearly having a medical emergency.
(He offered to call EMS, but seriously, fuck that. I would rather drive the two blocks to my parents' house and have my brother calm me down than sit there and wait for medical attention with a guy who's too busy trying to give me a $112 ticket to give more than a passing shit about me.)
-- Aaaaaaand now I have to work for the rest of the night, which means I've felt on the edge of another panic attack since something like noon.
I seriously cannot wait until tomorrow, when I can go to the lake and sit on the dock and get wasted while reading a good book.
-- I took next week off, which means I'll have plenty of time to look for a new job. Which is good, because I am literally THIS CLOSE to just quitting. Whenever I think it might possibly not be so stressful, it gets so much worse. (Case in point: We keep getting sent worksheets of claims which need to be processed that day. If we can't finish, we have to email our supervisor as to why we couldn't get them done every damn day. So basically we're expected to make excuses why we're not good enough every night, unless of course we manage to do ten to twelve hours of work whether we want to or not.)
-- The job is stressing me out so much that today I logged out so I wouldn't have a panic attack and call one of my supervisors to yell at her, then went to the cottage at the lake my parents are renting for the next two weeks for a breather, *then* left to come home to finish my work only to feel a panic attack coming on the closer I got to my apartment, THEN got pulled over by a cop for speeding in an attempt to get home before I had a panic attack. He gave me a ticket even though when he came back to my car with my paperwork, I was bent over the steering wheel hyperventilating.
You're goddamn right I'm pleading not guilty. I've never done it before but I'd genuinely like the cop try to explain to the magistrate the reasoning behind giving a speeding ticket to someone who was clearly having a medical emergency.
(He offered to call EMS, but seriously, fuck that. I would rather drive the two blocks to my parents' house and have my brother calm me down than sit there and wait for medical attention with a guy who's too busy trying to give me a $112 ticket to give more than a passing shit about me.)
-- Aaaaaaand now I have to work for the rest of the night, which means I've felt on the edge of another panic attack since something like noon.
I seriously cannot wait until tomorrow, when I can go to the lake and sit on the dock and get wasted while reading a good book.
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Date: 2013-07-10 04:31 pm (UTC)http://fandomsandfeminism.tumblr.com/post/55089756371/so-on-the-anniversary-of-stonewall-i-asked-yall
Hope your challenge of the ticket goes in your favor!