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I've been writing dialogue all day. That's not a bad thing. If I can manage to write another chapter of dialogue today, I can pile on the words like crazy once I start in on the surrounding action.
Okay, look, let me just state something right now. I am terrified I won't finish this. SCARED AS FUCK. I stalled with GPW in the middle. I stalled with The Monsters of Moosic in the middle. I stalled with The Hollow Girl on chapter four, for fuck's sake. I'm at about 31k. If everything goes according to tradition, I'm going to write another twenty thousand words and then sputter to a stop.
Ugh. I absolutely do NOT want that to happen this time.
If I can manage to just keep a steady pace here -- no "I will get this done by the end of June/July/August/the year/this century" -- I'll be thrilled. At my current pace I'd be done by the middle of July, but I'm not holding myself to that or stressing myself out about it. I just want to keep going, that's all.
*sigh*
I feel like buying myself a present just for getting halfway rather than when I finish like I normally do. Of course, if I do that my brain will probably just stop anyway because it'll be like, "Oh, new toy! So we're done now, right?"
I haven't even edited The Grand Prize Winner yet. *headdesk*
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I've been writing dialogue all day. That's not a bad thing. If I can manage to write another chapter of dialogue today, I can pile on the words like crazy once I start in on the surrounding action.
Okay, look, let me just state something right now. I am terrified I won't finish this. SCARED AS FUCK. I stalled with GPW in the middle. I stalled with The Monsters of Moosic in the middle. I stalled with The Hollow Girl on chapter four, for fuck's sake. I'm at about 31k. If everything goes according to tradition, I'm going to write another twenty thousand words and then sputter to a stop.
Ugh. I absolutely do NOT want that to happen this time.
If I can manage to just keep a steady pace here -- no "I will get this done by the end of June/July/August/the year/this century" -- I'll be thrilled. At my current pace I'd be done by the middle of July, but I'm not holding myself to that or stressing myself out about it. I just want to keep going, that's all.
*sigh*
I feel like buying myself a present just for getting halfway rather than when I finish like I normally do. Of course, if I do that my brain will probably just stop anyway because it'll be like, "Oh, new toy! So we're done now, right?"
I haven't even edited The Grand Prize Winner yet. *headdesk*
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Date: 2009-05-19 08:23 am (UTC)i'm working on this blog, you know, and it's - it's embarrassing, there are a million blogs, a billion, no one's going to read, etc. etc. - but it's something i need to write and a place to write it, and when i stall i think of you in the cafe writing and it gives me hope.