Deeeeeep thoughts.
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apocalypsosOr as deep as I can manage this late at night. (I'm kinda hoping I don't get a phone call bright and early telling me to get to that job tomorrow if only because I need more time to NOT freak out about the whole job thing. Anyway.)
-- The boys need this break. THE BOYS NEED THIS. No, I'm seriously going to have to keep telling myself this because even knowing full well they'll be back together soon enough, it still hurts.
That said, there's a level of maturity in this decision that they're both achieving by splitting up for the time being. Sam made the decision to go and Dean didn't stop him. No arguments, no fights, no punches thrown -- just one man who needs to step back and get his shit together, and one who'll keep on keeping on so he'll be there to come back to when the time comes. Everything about this hurts and hurts and hurts, but it's good and it's healthy and it needs to happen in spite of it.
-- I love that Castiel's being given the opportunity to open up, to develop a personality outside of his orders and his mission. Last year he had strict instructions and he knew what had to be done, and look how that turned out. His anger last year wasn't personal. His anger tonight was. Being separated from the loyal-soldier lifestyle he's been living FOREVER is already changing him for the better. He's free to have lame misunderstandings about sarcasm and vent at the boys about the shithole his life's become because he's trying to do the right thing even though it's hard. He's even starting to sound different, his emotions bleeding through. Misha's doing a fantastic job of making him sound less like a monotone growly statue and more like a PERSON. It's a little change, but it's lovely.
-- I find myself OBSESSED with whether or not I've completely missed the amulet glowing in the past. Has it? Did they throw that in and we just missed it? We're detail junkies, for heaven's sake -- SOMEBODY has to have noticed while watching this show.
In any event, the fact that such an amulet (and there's another question -- I don't think I've ever noticed if Castiel's made any notice of the amulet before) ended up with Dean, of all people ... it can't be simple coincidence. The convoluted path it took to get to him has always been interesting. Bobby gave it to Sam, who meant to give it to John, but ended up giving it to Dean. It strikes me that it was supposed to go with John, who sold his soul, ended up in Hell, and was possibly the first shot at breaking the first seal (but obviously didn't), but instead Sam gave it to Dean, who sold his soul, ended up in Hell, and HE was the one who broke the first seal instead. What if Sam HAD ended up giving it to John?
That said, I'm now wondering if God's hiding on purpose and knows who s/he is, or if they're totally in hiding and have no clue who they are. And Castiel has to have SOME idea where God might be. It seems pretty reckless to take the amulet with no idea of where to go to wiggle it in people's faces and wait for it to go off like a freakin' blue light special.
And is it the only one available? These are the questions I don't need frying my brain right now, you guys.
-- Ellen and Jo lived! Rufus lived! Bobby lived!
The powers-that-be put two women, a black guy, and a guy with a disability in an episode and didn't kill or torture any of them. And last week Meg made it out alive -- in her own way, of course. And it's highly unlikely Jess is going to get tortured or killed next week considering she's already dead. (It's usually my default out of reflex, but this season's looking up already.)
Good show! You get a cupcake.
That said, picturing Ellen hunting with Jo and picking up Rufus somewhere along the way makes me happy in my pants in ways I cannot describe. I just find myself thinking, well, hell, no wonder the show has such a lousy time with POC and women -- the ones left alive are starting a hunting team somewhere else where Ellen grumbles at Jo and calls her an idiot and Jo rolls her eyes and storms into fights gleefully and Rufus gets headaches and breaks up their stupid fights. Heh.
-- I'm sincerely hoping that Bobby, after giving himself time to grieve for his legs, will buck up and find a way to be awesome even if he can't walk. To be fair, though, my bet is that either Castiel, God (if Cas can manage to haul him/her back), or Michael (if he takes over Dean or whatever) will give him a jump-start and fix his legs by the end of the season.
Although I kinda hope not. Because I like the thought of Bobby saying, "Fuck this, I'M STILL AMAZING," and going onward.
-- I kind of wish War had been played by a woman, but the "Hey, It's That Guy!" they got to play him was so amazing I can't bring myself to complain much. He was just the right amount of charming, bloodthirsty, and sly.
-- In a completely superficial move, I want that X-ray on an icon. I'll have to keep an eye out in the next few days, as I'm sure there'll be some nice sharp ones available. :)
-- The boys need this break. THE BOYS NEED THIS. No, I'm seriously going to have to keep telling myself this because even knowing full well they'll be back together soon enough, it still hurts.
That said, there's a level of maturity in this decision that they're both achieving by splitting up for the time being. Sam made the decision to go and Dean didn't stop him. No arguments, no fights, no punches thrown -- just one man who needs to step back and get his shit together, and one who'll keep on keeping on so he'll be there to come back to when the time comes. Everything about this hurts and hurts and hurts, but it's good and it's healthy and it needs to happen in spite of it.
-- I love that Castiel's being given the opportunity to open up, to develop a personality outside of his orders and his mission. Last year he had strict instructions and he knew what had to be done, and look how that turned out. His anger last year wasn't personal. His anger tonight was. Being separated from the loyal-soldier lifestyle he's been living FOREVER is already changing him for the better. He's free to have lame misunderstandings about sarcasm and vent at the boys about the shithole his life's become because he's trying to do the right thing even though it's hard. He's even starting to sound different, his emotions bleeding through. Misha's doing a fantastic job of making him sound less like a monotone growly statue and more like a PERSON. It's a little change, but it's lovely.
-- I find myself OBSESSED with whether or not I've completely missed the amulet glowing in the past. Has it? Did they throw that in and we just missed it? We're detail junkies, for heaven's sake -- SOMEBODY has to have noticed while watching this show.
In any event, the fact that such an amulet (and there's another question -- I don't think I've ever noticed if Castiel's made any notice of the amulet before) ended up with Dean, of all people ... it can't be simple coincidence. The convoluted path it took to get to him has always been interesting. Bobby gave it to Sam, who meant to give it to John, but ended up giving it to Dean. It strikes me that it was supposed to go with John, who sold his soul, ended up in Hell, and was possibly the first shot at breaking the first seal (but obviously didn't), but instead Sam gave it to Dean, who sold his soul, ended up in Hell, and HE was the one who broke the first seal instead. What if Sam HAD ended up giving it to John?
That said, I'm now wondering if God's hiding on purpose and knows who s/he is, or if they're totally in hiding and have no clue who they are. And Castiel has to have SOME idea where God might be. It seems pretty reckless to take the amulet with no idea of where to go to wiggle it in people's faces and wait for it to go off like a freakin' blue light special.
And is it the only one available? These are the questions I don't need frying my brain right now, you guys.
-- Ellen and Jo lived! Rufus lived! Bobby lived!
The powers-that-be put two women, a black guy, and a guy with a disability in an episode and didn't kill or torture any of them. And last week Meg made it out alive -- in her own way, of course. And it's highly unlikely Jess is going to get tortured or killed next week considering she's already dead. (It's usually my default out of reflex, but this season's looking up already.)
Good show! You get a cupcake.
That said, picturing Ellen hunting with Jo and picking up Rufus somewhere along the way makes me happy in my pants in ways I cannot describe. I just find myself thinking, well, hell, no wonder the show has such a lousy time with POC and women -- the ones left alive are starting a hunting team somewhere else where Ellen grumbles at Jo and calls her an idiot and Jo rolls her eyes and storms into fights gleefully and Rufus gets headaches and breaks up their stupid fights. Heh.
-- I'm sincerely hoping that Bobby, after giving himself time to grieve for his legs, will buck up and find a way to be awesome even if he can't walk. To be fair, though, my bet is that either Castiel, God (if Cas can manage to haul him/her back), or Michael (if he takes over Dean or whatever) will give him a jump-start and fix his legs by the end of the season.
Although I kinda hope not. Because I like the thought of Bobby saying, "Fuck this, I'M STILL AMAZING," and going onward.
-- I kind of wish War had been played by a woman, but the "Hey, It's That Guy!" they got to play him was so amazing I can't bring myself to complain much. He was just the right amount of charming, bloodthirsty, and sly.
-- In a completely superficial move, I want that X-ray on an icon. I'll have to keep an eye out in the next few days, as I'm sure there'll be some nice sharp ones available. :)
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Date: 2009-09-18 04:43 am (UTC)And I so wanted War to be played by a woman. That's such awesome fanon that SHOULD be canon.
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Date: 2009-09-18 04:46 am (UTC)This is exactly what I thought when I was watching it.
I also suspect that God is not as away as everyone thinks s/he is... just my theory since Zachariah said that last year. Oh, yes... taunt the absent God. THAT is the way to get SMOTE, sir! ;-)
I'm seeing quite the parallel between Lucifer's first trip to Hell and the dick!Angels we've seen. There are the truly faithful (Castiel, Anna) and then there are the power-hungry we-don't-need-God-and-fuck-the-humans ones. I just have this feeling that when God gets in the picture... things will get REAL up in there. (or, maybe that's just me hoping...)
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Date: 2009-09-18 05:20 am (UTC)War as a woman would have been awesome, but the naive, pipe-dreamy part of me wants Famine to be played by a woman as a sort of sly commentary on fashion and the whole size Zero thing. She'd be a skinny supermodel diet mogul that runs a weight-loss program that women use to starve themselves to death, but no one calls her on it because the pressure to be thin is so overwhelming in our society. Besides, it's not like she FORCES the women to abide by her program. Power of suggestion, baby. :D
But...I doubt SPN would go that deep into Feminist issues, SO. ^^;;
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Date: 2009-09-18 12:07 pm (UTC)Cas is becoming the character I always knew he could be. I said repeatedly over the summer hiatus that I thought he would grow into a more interesting and awesome character once he was outside of the pressures of heaven. I was right! :D
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Date: 2009-09-18 01:15 pm (UTC)Castiel goes to various places (crossover possibilities?) looking for God.
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Date: 2009-09-18 03:11 pm (UTC)I was very surprised by how much I enjoyed this ep. Even though I kept shouting at the end about how dumb the boys were to split up.
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Date: 2009-09-18 03:14 pm (UTC)See, I want to call splitting up dumb, but I can't. As much as I dislike ever seeing the boys apart, I think they both need a mental health day from each other, such as it is.
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Date: 2009-09-18 03:16 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-09-18 03:20 pm (UTC)(OT, but after seeing your icon, I'm reminded ... did you see the baby pictures? How adorable was that sweet face?!)
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Date: 2009-09-18 03:27 pm (UTC)(Yes, omg! So so adorable! Which is really no surprise.)
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Date: 2009-10-07 09:27 am (UTC)Also, your layout is doing weird things to my comment. Right now I am typing the start of this sentence without being able to see what I'm typing, because the right hand side of the comment box is cut off! There will be lots of amusing of typos for you to laugh at when you read this...