A few random things

[apocalypsos]

-- Paladino Loses Rabbi's Support Over Apology To Gays - Not going to lie, but something about the way that article is written made me feel like I was reading an article in the Onion instead. (And speaking of Paladino's gay nephew, I can't find the link to the story I read yesterday - I believe I got there through HuffPo - where Paladino's gay nephew, who has been working on his campaign, hasn't come into work since Paladino made those stupid remarks. I still can't figure out why he started working there in the first place, but whatever.)

-- Let's Bust Some Myths: Depressed People Are Always Sad Or They're Faking!

Here is what short-term depression is like for me: I still laugh, I still smile, I still make jokes online and in real life. I work hard at both jobs, I take good care of my animals, and I still attend family gatherings. The entire time, I'm contemplating what I could use in my line of sight to kill myself. I skip trips out to the bar with my friends more often than not, and instead stay home, curl up in a miserable ball on my couch, and play Mahjong for hours on end while watching British panel shows on YouTube and eating Cheetos and Pepsi for breakfast. The entire time, all I can think is that I should be writing, taking a shower, and eating something healthy, and realizing that just makes things that much worse. And I spend far too much time worrying that no one believes I have depression, in my online or offline lives, even with evidence to the contrary, and the thought just manages to make things worse. Which leads me back into laughing and smiling and making jokes, thanks to the same sort of internal defense mechanism that makes me a giggling stupid annoyance at funerals.

So ... yeah. Fantastic bingo card at the link, by the way.

-- apiphile is doing horrible, terrible, awful things to make me want to change my NaNoWriMo idea. There is talk of heroines who don't shave and wear cardigans and respond to leather pants with, "Are you fucking serious?" that is making me THINK things. *scowls*

Comments

[gavagai]

Yes, so much to the FWD post. I mean, sometimes I am very noticably depressed to the point of catatonia, but plenty of the rest of the time I am functional and cheery because I plunge vast amounts of energy into being so.

Also, *hugs*