Rambling about writing ... well, more like venting, really

[apocalypsos]

Okay, so here's the thing. I've been tempted since not long after I started watching Supernatural to write Wincest. Which, let's face it, is a little honking weird for me, because I pretty much realized it's not the incest thing that's getting me. I've done Shannon/Boone, and I would do George Michael/Maeby in a heartbeat (if I trusted myself enough to do Arrested Development fic, and when I haven't seen all of the episodes and the only voice I can hear without really thinking about it is GOB, not a chance), but those are a lot easier for me considering it's het. (Well, and they're not technically incest, but let's not get into that, shall we?)

See, that's where I'm just losing it -- when I think about writing the sex. Working on the PR RPS has helped somewhat, but obviously I didn't go all THAT in-depth. If I'm going to do Wincest, I want to go all the damn way, you know? And God knows it's not like I'm lacking in the beta department for that, considering how many Wincest writers are on my friends list. But I have a hard enough time as is writing het sex -- not because I can't, but because I don't want to fuck it up. It's not like I don't know what goes on (hell, considering how much I know, the virginity's more of a technicality at this point), it's just that not having done it makes me nervous about writing sex scenes, and if you screw up a sex scene it looks almost twice as bad as when you screw up a normal scene.

But then joyfulgirl41 had to go and write Virgin!Dean Wincest.

And I've had a virgin-sacrifice plotbunny for Supernatural for AGES. (Not sacrificing the virgins, but sacrificing the virginity, you know?)

I ... I just ... *waves hands frantically between Virgin!Dean and plotbunny* You know what I'm saying? It's right there. All I have to do is read an enormous amount of Wincest today to get in the mood, and maybe buy some Smirnoff. I'm pretty sure I'm going to need to be a little buzzed to do this if I'm going to do it.

Jesus, you'd think with the way I'm going on that I was the one possibly losing my virginity to Sam.

... you know, come to think of it, that might help more than the booze.

Okay, carry on. :)

Comments

[elessar.livejournal.com]

Shannon/Boone isn't as incesty, though, since there's no blood relations, they're only step-siblings.

[apocalypsos.livejournal.com]

Exactly, although when I was first shipping them, we still didn't know that for sure.

[elessar.livejournal.com]

Yeah, that's true. When I got into the series I saw all the episodes at once, so I forget that there was at least a one-week span between episodes airing XD

[insano-chick.livejournal.com]

I just have to butt in here for a second, while pausing on my every growing quest for *more* Supernatural fanfiction, to tell you that you have the best icon I have ever seen/read. I just about died from laughing at it and not being able to catch my breath. That has officially made my week better, and I thank you.

[timba.livejournal.com]

Buy the booze! Read the Wincest!

then get to writing!

the tiny winged!hamster compels you!

[xphoenixrising.livejournal.com]

You and your Wincest...

Anyway, I found an Apocalpse e-zine for stories and such that I thought you might like:

http://www.apocalypsefiction.com/

[joyfulgirl41.livejournal.com]

Wanna know a seekrit? *whispers* I hate writing sex. Hate it with the fiery passion of a thousand burning suns. Seriously? I started Virgin!Dean (Or, VD as we so affectionately working-titled it) in October, and it sat there until this weekend because I was all, "I why did I have a plot bunny with so much sex?" *angsts*

But, um, yeah. It just takes practice and someone patient enough to sit through your, "Did I mention I hate writing sex scenes?" comments. (Me to stone_princess every five minutes or so).

Actually, though, I find slash sex scenes way easier to write than het. So, um, yeah. *tries to be helpful* Oh! Point! I knew I had one! It's very easy to psyche yourself out when trying to write sex, but it's really not as bad as all that. *nods*

[apocalypsos.livejournal.com]

Well, I think it's a pretty safe bet it'll be around a while before I finish it. The plotbunny's been hanging over my head since that week all the good genderswap stories came out, and I still may do it that way if only because I have an easier time writing het than slash. (The PR RPS really is helping with that ... I've still got to finish that threesome story that is going to be at least a little explicit if I can help it.)

On the other hand, it may be easier once I get the Sam/Jess plotbunnies out of my head, because then I can just focus on the slash rather than switching between that and het.

[scary-being-me.livejournal.com]

Well, if it's the lack of experience that's troubling you; go get some. :)

[tinylegacies.livejournal.com]

I don't think you should let lack of experience hold you back... I've had lots of sex and up until recently was VERY uncomfortable writing it. I'm only starting to get the hang of it and it's all in an RP setting, so I haven't even written it on my own yet.

[sesana]

And I've had a virgin-sacrifice plotbunny for Supernatural for AGES. (Not sacrificing the virgins, but sacrificing the virginity, you know?)

That would be awesome. If I wasn't living an entire region away, I would personally buy you your booze of choice so I could read that.